“The spot is benign”, my friend heard, and since that moment every breath has been a gift.
It’s funny how that happens.
Ever since she got cancer and was pronounced clear after chemo, every successive checkup slowly delivered her back to normal life.
Where breaths are expected, rather than celebrated.
Until the last check up when they found “a spot.”
The worst part was the timing– she was just about to leave for vacation and had to take this news with her; and she wouldn’t find out whether it was or wasn’t cancer till she got home.
Vacation spent nestled where God likes us best to be.
In the midst of the unknown, trusting for what is unseen.
The place we develop our muscles of faith.
Feels like a cruel place, the unknown.
I prefer the happy place of “known”, as it helps me achieve that fabulous sense of false security that all will be exactly as I predict it to be.
Which it never is.
But I like it there anyway.
“Known” is a calm companion, and at the very least, we should be able to take our vacations with it.
But she didn’t get to.
She was forced to take the unknown with her.
And with the unknown, came the fear and dread every time she thought “What if”.
Until “What if” stopped carrying the weight it once had.
And another notch of fear was replaced by another notch of trust.
The unknown feels so distant and awful, but it is actually the place where we are nestled and held close. We discover things about God we wouldn’t know any other way.
So my friend went on her vacation, and lived her days.
She prayed her request.
And stayed in the now.
And in the midst of the unknown and unseen she found
that whatever the outcome, she would be okay.
Which was exactly the point.
And then she came home.
And the spot turned out to be nothing at all.
And she came outside and spread her arms and looked to the sky
And she saw her life again—with the vision that comes after we thought we might lose what we hold dear, and suddenly gain it back again.
The vision God gives us by taking us through the unknown and unseen.
So we can see every gift.
And live where we are supposed to be.
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Yes!! Thank you for sharing this. Maybe it will encourage someone else on life’s journey.
thank you for living it Priscilla! And sharing your journey of faith with me and my readers. You are a treasure!
In it together!
Thank you Laurie for this message which so resonates with me during this difficult time in my life.
Help me LORD to live in the present and to be “fully yours”, despite my circumstances, and the way things appear. I know that you have the whole world nestled in the “palm of your hand”, as well as my situation, and every single one of my tears. So LORD please help me to be “still” and have your peace, when I don’t know what your plan is.
Love this prayer Lea… and feel in my spirit that He does too. He sees and knows more than you, and He is at work, even when it doesn’t feel like it. And in the meantime, be good to yourself and look for little ways that He will show you Himself during this time. Blessings to you dear girl… you are in the middle of your story, NOT the end:) Paste Isaiah 50:10 before you and cling.
This post is very relevant to me and my family at this time – thank you Laurie for sharing it. I would appreciate the prayers of your readers for healing in a situation that recently presented itself and which is unknown territory for us.
Praying David! Blessings to you